... and I'm sick of school. For some reason all of my recent DNA sequencing efforts have been frustratingly crappy. That translates into a tremendous waste of time, effort, and $$$$. I've invested quite a bit of time into generating the sequence data, and now I may not be able to use it because it's not as high-quality as it should be. Plus, I have to meet with some members of the department so they can rake me over the coals for not having had a committee meeting yet, thereby delaying my comps. I guess I need to find that final faculty member to complete my graduate committee.
OK, so I don't really hate school. I am tired of doing the same thing every day, and I'm ready to move on to phase II of this project. I'm also not over excited about working with plants (cotton, to be precise), but since my fellowship requires I do cotton genetic research, then cotton genetic research it is. *sigh*
I guess I'm tired of feeling inadequate. I somewhat reluctantly accepted the fellowship in the first place b/c I was intimidated about having to major in GENETICS. Molecular biology - fine. Biological Sciences - fine. GENETICS - not so fine. I always feel I should know more about my subject, but I don't love it enough to constantly read, read, read science journal articles. Am I just too lazy? I wish I weren't so insecure, but that's the story of my life. When I look back upon most of the outlandish (or downright stoopid) things I've done, hiding my insecurities has always been the ultimate reason. *Stopping to recollect* Yep, I would say that statement's accurate.
Oh well, Shonta's here so I'd best get to steppin'. Later!
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Thank you dear... I needed that. :-D
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